written on 06 July
at 0200 hrs

*Write me a song. One that makes all the girls cry...* -Edwin

Y'know, I'm sorry I couldn't be the strong one. I'm sorry I couldn't pull you through tonight. I'm sorry I fuckin' bailed like the pansy-ass I told you I would never be.

But I can't handle doubt, either. I can't handle "what if"s and "maybe"s. And you don't owe me anything more secure than "what if"s and "maybe"s. You don't owe me anything at all.

But I can't do a thing all day without thinking of you. And I can't put the past behind me without you.

So yeah, I suck.

But,

I love you.